What Jump-started me on my Journey? Midwifery Student

        Since starting my first cycle I've been intrigued with the human body and how it works. I set my goals in high school to become a nurse that delivers babies and open a hospital. Literally still have my hospital blue print till this day. I've always loved nurturing an environment and bringing love and laughter. 

          After high school I went to nursing school for two semesters. Learning various skills along with seeing how my path to just delivering was not as quick as I wanted it to be or hands on in a setting that interested me as becoming pregnant and ashamed. I became discouraged after telling a few peers and I became the classroom joke. How was I going to finish while pregnant?

          I terminated my pregnancy, due to fear of failure and lack of understanding my future plans. So at 19 I worked tirelessly as a CNA, assisting clients and also standing beside as clients transitioned. I overstood our lifecycle and studied my clients as we did daily routines and during their transitional phase. So I strived for my goals, going to college and getting two associate degrees one in business and the other in science. 

          I knew then, I wouldn't stop there. It only quenched my thrist for knowledge sightly. Of course the test came back again! I became pregnant again in 2012 while finishing up my degree, I pushed through and did both. I kept my baby and got my degrees. 

          Having my sun in 2013 I knew a great bit of knowledge of the birthing process. I went in to the emergency room after an car accident and my pressure was high. I gave them my birth plan and my demands, I stood my grounds till I got tired. We had been there for hours on my induction and the pain grew even more intense. 

         Once receiving my epidural everything went down hill. I was told his heart was dropping but being 23, the words were triggering. It was just me and my boyfriend at the time. Resulting to an unneccessary cesarian.

     Later I returned to school to gain my bachelor's degree in business in 2019. Of course you know this part right? Yup I became pregnant again! Having my second sun in 2017, I advocated during my doctor visits I didn't want another cesarian and I would be trying for a vbac. I labored home as long as I thought I should and showed up to the hospital in thoughts of me having a baby upon arrival. 

       Nope, I was tied to a unwireless montior and told I had to stay put. They needed to montior my babies heart beat, due to my prior pregnancy reasons of delivery. I triéd to voice for a wireless monitor but they instructed how they didn't have any at that facility. So, I played à dangerous game of untying the montior and taking bathroom trips. 

        While in the bathroom I was streching and laboring. They got tired of me unhooking and rehooking and told me I had to stay put for a certain time frame. I got to 6 to 7 cm seating in that bed till I gave in for, yes you guessed it, the epidural. Again ! Heart raté dropped and I'm on my way to another cesarian. After experiencing not one but two unneccessary cesarians, I was over it. 

      My focus was my hospital and I had to change the trajectory, not for just me but for others as well. Which is why I pushed through school with two children. During my second suns 3 month shoots, he had an adverse reaction to his shots and they wanted to do a spinal tap. We quickly déclined. Then my eyes we're opened to what true medicine looked like for me. Herbal supplements and remedies became my new research. 

   We then transitioned to pesceatarian. Having an life triggering health scare in April of 2019,while on a family trip with my second sun. It propelled me and my husband to return home after à week of some what vacation and throw all our food away. We we're now raw vegan.

     That year (2019) my first business was birthed Veggie Man & Veggie Krew, LLC. Herbal alternatives was my official go too. Becoming pregnant in 2020 during the pandemic I knew I wouldn't be stepping à foot near à hospital. I hunted all over online for a midwife, despite you not being able to be licensed in NC. Also finding one that would take on the task of someone having two csearians. I found her and my dream came true in 2021. 

     My first daughter was born magically in my living room of my home. I had beat all gossiping odds. Having an I didn't know I was pregnant moment in 2022, a week later I almost had a miscariage. I had gotten ill and we're having none stop contractions for a day. My sistar came read the energy and did an Reiki Healing Session on me. 

      My contractions completely stopped! Me and my husband delivered her so peacefully in the bathroom of my moms home. 30 days upon my second daughters birth. I was faced with her transition which felt like over night. My heart was torn. How could I let this happen ? Finding out she had an rare heart defect, made me do intense research. When she was trying to terminate around 5 to 6 weeks it's because her heart wasn't fully developed properly. Miscariages are because of something being wrong with the fetus. Trying to prevent something can cause à bigger issue in the end. Now is my time, my time to gain all my tools to finish my journey to midwifery.